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09 June 2008 @ 09:43 pm
[FIC] The way we change  
Title: The way we change
Author: jaejaelover33
Genre: Angst, Drama
Length: Part 1/?
Summary: Yunho is the popular kid, the one everyone looks up to. The one everyone worships and chases after. He lives normally, as normal as any jock could. But when the new kid comes to school, Kim Jaejoong, life as he knew it stops, hits reverse, and turns Yunho's world upside down.

Yunho's P.O.V

High School. What people say are the best years of your life. They say High school is the time when you decide the way you will live for the rest of your life. High School is the time when you reach within yourself and dig out the answers to become what you want to be. High School is when you decide what type of people you can work with. Who you like to date. Some say would die to go back, some say they would die if they went back.

Everybody has their different opinions, but nearly everybody agrees on one thing. High School changes you.

That's what everyone says, but I want to stay how I am. I have a good life, better than most people I would say. I have a good family, great friends, and i'm just about the most popular guy in the school. I don't want to change. Call me stuck up, but that's what I feel.

I've had a lot of girlfriends, all very pretty of course. They're usually popular, I mean seriously, what would it look like if I dated someone from a lesser class of popularity than me? But I'm not all bad, I always find the nice ones. Not because they're easy or something, that's terrible! But because I like nice girls, girls that know how to care about someone. Still for some reason I can't seem to find the girl that I can stay with for longer than a month or two.

"It's not you," I will tell them when I'm about to break up with them. Of course I have to do it, the breaking up part. It never feels right to me. All of them give me everything they can, I know they do, but for some reason it's just never enough. I always feel out of place.

"Why?" They will ask me, always on the brim of tears. I have that effect on girls I guess. Is it my charm? Maybe my muscles? I don't know, but they always cry. Every damn one of them.

I'll take their hand and tell them that they're just not right for me. It's true! Then they cry, some of them yell. I like the ones that yell best. They make me feel less guilty for some reason. But hell, I can't escape guilt. I'm not heartless you know! Aish, girl tears.

That's why now, after dating and dumping so many girls, I question my sexuality. Am I supposed to like guys or something? Does that sounds stupid? I never thought of myself as one to date another of the same sex, but maybe that's what everybody meant by High school changes you.

I've never in my whole life been attracted to a guy, but I found myself looking amongst the males in the school. None of them are particularly attractive, but hell, I was still looking. That is insane. I'm insane!

Sometimes I drove myself crazy thinking about everything so much. I guess the only thing to do is to stop thinking about anything. Dating wise, I hope you understand. I don't even date anymore.

My friends think I'm insane. I tell them that i just can't find the right girl, so I stopped looking. It's half the truth anyway, they can live without the rest. They look at me with questioning eyes, but then drop the subject like it never came up. Good friends, right? I thought so. I usually just shrug it off.

Today my friend, Yoochun, brought it up again. He sucks like that. We were sitting in class, supposed to be studying quietly for the upcoming test, and he thinks it is a great time to start talking about my love life.

"Yunho," I heard Yoochun whisper. Damn, why such good ears Yunho? Oh god, he loves me so. I could of just ignored him, call me stupid. I suggest you don't though. I will find you...

Anyway.. So I looked up to see him smiling brightly. That's not new. He always smiles like everything in the world is made out of marshmallows and lollipops.

"Look," Yoochun said, pointing to a girl sitting three seats away from me. "She's pretty, why don't you ask her out?"

I raised an eyebrow. Is he serious? Aish, he doesn't know me at all. "She's not my type." I said. As if that could work.

Yoochun mockingly raised his eyebrow in return. "Do you have a type?" He asked.

Of course I have a type! Nice, pretty, popular girls. Maybe guys.. Shit, I''m not even supposed to be thinking about that stuff anymore! "Yes, now study." I pushed his notebook closer toward him and looked back at me.

"But," I heard him whimper. Oh Yoochun. I hate you so much my dear friend.

"Be quiet," I told him, a little louder than i was supposed to. Ah yes, the teacher heard me, and of course he told me to be quiet.

"Sorry," I apologized to the teacher, even though I shouldn't of had to. I glared at Yoochun, and he turned his attention back to his studies.

Thank god, I thought to myself. I honestly believed he was going to leave me alone. I am so stupid. He will never leave me alone.

I heard the teacher clear his throat and then he started to speak again. I rolled my eyes. "Sorry to interrupt your studies, but we have a new student today." He said aloud.

I looked up from my notebook to see him patting the shoulder of, what I guessed to be, the new student. He was wearing a dark shirt, black. Just black. I thought it was odd, but I wasn't one to say my judging comments out loud. He was wearing jeans, dark jeans. What was this, some kind of Gothic freak or something?

I looked up at the new student's face, after judging his attire rather harshly in my mind. But damn, when I saw his face, I don't know what it was, but something inside of me exploded the moment I saw how beautiful he was. I'm not gonna lie, the second I saw his face my first thought was that he was going to be mine. No matter what. And that was that.

Alright slow down. I'm not gay, well I don't think so anyway. But if you only knew. He was like.. amazingly gorgeous. I couldn't help myself but stare. It was unlike anything else I had ever felt. Weird.

"This is the new student, Kim Jaejoong." The teacher announced.  Um.. Duh? "Everybody say hello."

I heard the class call out hello in unison. Haha, unison. It sounded funny. Me, I was too swallowed up in my thoughts and beautiful the new student was to say anything. I mean, I was in shock or something. I had never really believed in love at first sight, but now I think I'm obsessed with it. Does that make me a girl? My heart was pounding in my chest, like, really hard. It kind of hurt actually. I didn't know what was going on.

"Mr. Wong," I called out.  It was kind of random, why I spoke. I hardly even realized I did speak. "He can sit next to me."

"Ah," Mr. Wong said. He pointed to me, and then the seat next to mine. This one guy sat there, but he can get over it. "Yes you can sit next to Yunho for today." He told Jaejoong.

I smiled. Like a freaking five year old.

"Yunho, can you let him copy your notes?" Mr. Wong asked me. My stomach turned all of the sudden. Seriously, my insides were freaking out, and my brain was all confused.

I nodded as I watched Jaejoong make his way to the empty seat next to mine. He even walked pretty. Is that weird to say?

"Hi, I'm Jung Yunho." I said when he reached me, holding out my hand. He took it in his own. His hand was amazingly soft for a man's, and if I hadn't been doubting his gender before I definitely would have been after I felt his skin. His soft, soft skin.

He smiled at me, and I felt my heart jump again. I tried my hardest to smile back without looking like a complete fool. I hope I managed, but one can never be too sure.

I watched as he sat down next to me, took out a notebook and pencil and looked at me. Every single move he made I felt my eyes locked on him, almost in a trance.

Shaking myself out of it when I noticed him looking at me I pushed my notebook toward him. "You can copy them." I said in the most ridiculously small voice you can imagine.

"Thanks." He said in response. It sounded so cute, the way he said. So innocent and angelic. I couldn't believe the way I was  freaking out about this guy. It was all so sudden.

I couldn't help myself from watching Jaejoong again. He was just so gorgeous. I saw him look up at me, probably wondering why I was staring at him so intensely. He looked really nervous, so I pryed my eyes away from him and I looked at Yoochun.

Yoochun was staring at me with the most ridiculous grin I had ever seen in my life. Oh god. What was he thinking? I raised an eyebrow at him, but he just smiled wider and looked back at his studies.


penguins smell funny.
himeno15 on June 10th, 2008 05:07 am (UTC)
I like it. love at first sight lmao
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on June 10th, 2008 04:43 pm (UTC)
reveriereveriepooh on June 10th, 2008 05:38 am (UTC)
love at the first chapter.......
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on June 10th, 2008 05:23 pm (UTC)
emeraud_hero on June 10th, 2008 06:15 am (UTC)
awww.. cute yunnie.♥
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on June 10th, 2008 05:24 pm (UTC)
If nothing lasts forever, please be my nothingtashyahero on June 10th, 2008 07:40 am (UTC)
i love it...
sounds intersting...
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on June 10th, 2008 05:28 pm (UTC)
thank you
crying on the rainapplepieprinces on June 10th, 2008 10:17 am (UTC)
and thats how chunnie starts to be a jaeho shipper ahahahah XD
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on June 10th, 2008 05:30 pm (UTC)
~♥Hope to the End. Always Keep the Faith♥~chloe1910 on June 10th, 2008 02:20 pm (UTC)
Love at first side for our Jung Yunho..Yunho..you've got it bad man....

Can't wait to know what's gonna happen next...
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on June 10th, 2008 05:33 pm (UTC)
haha. Yunho has it so bad... i will continue this soon.
ara_nieyara_niey on June 10th, 2008 02:56 pm (UTC)
yun was so busted by chun!that guys knows EVERYTHING..keke~

continue then~^___________^
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on June 10th, 2008 05:35 pm (UTC)
i will.
irerd_tagairerd_taga on June 10th, 2008 03:49 pm (UTC)
Aaahhhh love at first sight for Yunho! But what about Jae? Will Yunho have to chase and woo him? That'll be fun to read!
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on June 10th, 2008 11:27 pm (UTC)
Chase and woo? haha..
Responjaeholife on June 10th, 2008 05:24 pm (UTC)
Yunho's looks cute here true to himself and others, anyway looking forward to next one..thanks
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on June 10th, 2008 11:27 pm (UTC)
hehe.. so true.. thank you
ai_fantasy9 on June 10th, 2008 05:28 pm (UTC)
i love this. haha love at first sight. i wished that happens to everyone. but i guess not everyone is as lucky as yunho and jaejoong =D

you have to continue! i royally enjoyed this story. update soon yes? =)
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on June 10th, 2008 11:28 pm (UTC)
thank you..
yummyfruityummyfruit on June 10th, 2008 11:10 pm (UTC)
yunho...you're not the only one who cant take eyes of off jaejoong. MAKE jaejoong yours...yoochunnniiieeee....he knows doesnt he??
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on June 10th, 2008 11:28 pm (UTC)
yes.. yoochun know everything!!
YUE™lilxinyue on June 11th, 2008 12:27 am (UTC)
Jaeho!Love At First Sight = ME SPEEKING IN NO COhERENT-cy-ness xD/
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on June 11th, 2008 02:35 am (UTC)
Ying: Yunho <3sppfd on June 11th, 2008 05:09 pm (UTC)
It's so sweet! hahaha
I can't wait what Jaejoong's personality is? XD
sazzykorea on August 3rd, 2008 11:21 pm (UTC)
i luv this!! luv at the first sight...well who's not when he's kim jaejoong!!
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on August 3rd, 2008 11:23 pm (UTC)
thanky ou very much. *hands cookie*
in0cenc3expiredin0cenc3expired on August 3rd, 2008 11:25 pm (UTC)
i think yoochun is in for a big surprise!!...or is yunho in for one instead...?
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on August 3rd, 2008 11:30 pm (UTC)
haha. u will see.