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01 September 2009 @ 06:53 pm
You make me crazy - Drabble  
Title: You make me crazy
Author: jaejaelover33
Pairing: YunJae
Genre: Angst, Slight fluff
Length: Drabble
Summary: Yunho is getting engaged to the women of his dreams. Jaejoong is only his friend, forced to watch in jealousy.

I watched him as he held her hand, oblivious of me staring. He looked at her with the utmost care, touching her only with soft gentle, loving hands. I was envious, I knew. I had know for so long, but there was nothing I could do about it.

I continued to stare as he lifted up his free hand to brush away her bangs from her eyes. He tucked the small bundle of hair behind her ear and smiled gently. My insides burned with jealousy and my eyes fixed on the engagement ring snugly fitted around her ring finger. Before I could understand what I was doing I was already at Yunho's side, wrapping my fingers in a tight hold around his wrist. "Come with me." I ordered in a whisper.

I didn't wait for Yunho to stand. I pulled him up from his seat, away from her, and I dragged him after me to the front porch.

"That was completely unnecessary." I heard him say, but I didn't respond, only glaring at him until he looked back at me. At first he seemed surprised, but soon settled into a glare of his own. "What do you want?" He asked rather rudely.  But of course I was being rude, too.

"I just need to talk to you." I lied. I hadn't planned anything to say. It's not like I could tell him to break up with his fiance. What kind of person would that make me?

Yunho sighed and looked at the closed front door. "Can you hurry? I do have someone waiting."

Of course. I thought to myself bitterly. I didn't know how to respond to that, with nothing on my mind for an important conversation. I argued with myself for almost a minute, debating on whether I should just tell Yunho of my jealousy, or tell him something else foolish.

I finally decided on telling him the truth of my feelings, knowing after his wedding I would be long forgotten anyway. Me being only his friend, but her being his life. I sighed deeply, thinking about how I would move on from him, but comforted myself with the thought of his happiness and how I couldn't be so terrible as to ruin it. "Yunho, I just need to tell you something."

Yunho's eyes came back to mine. They held little care for me, and my heart tightened with sadness. I took in a deep, unsteady breath to calm myself, and I let the truth pour out. "I won't bother you anymore." I began, and his blank eyes became curious. "After your wedding I'm leaving. Almost immediately."

Yunho didn't interrupt. He seemed to be only waiting for me to speak again. "The truth is," I said, finally getting to the point. "I can't be around you anymore. You make me crazy."

"Crazy?" Yunho asked, utterly confused all of the sudden.

I sighed, for what must have been the hundredth time. "I love you, Yunho. I aways have."

There was an uncomfortable silence, Yunho still squinting his eyes in confusion, and me nervously waiting for his response. But then Yunho suddenly gasped, and his arms flung around me faster than I could blink. "Jaejoong? Why me?" He asked, and I couldn't understand his question.

"W-what?" I stuttered in his embrace, though not paying so much attention to his words to how right it felt to be hugged by him. "Why you?"

He nodded vigorously, then pulled back and I could see tears gleaming in his eyes. "Why would you love me?"

Did he want me to tell him all the reasons I loved him? I didn't know. I could only shrug my shoulders and hope that that was enough.

Yunho laughed for a moment, but then his eyes grew sad. "I-I love you too, Jaejoong." He said, and my eyes flickered back up to his face. "Rea-" I tried to say, but he interfered.

"I do love you Jaejoong, but that doesn't mean I can be with you. I love her, too and she is counting on me to be there."

I nodded, understanding what he was saying. My heart refused to cry though, instead flying with joy. The man I spent most of my time thinking about being with in some way wanted to be with me, too. And that was enough to make me happy.

Yunho leaned forward, so close to my face I could feel his breath on my lips. "Maybe in the next life." He whispered to me, and pressed his lips on mine. I could feel the strong words of goodbye in the short, bittersweet kiss, and as his lips left mine tears streamed from my eyes. He smiled at me before turning away and entering the house again. And I stood there, alone, still able to feel the soft tingle of his lips on mine.


A/N: Konichiwa! I'm not very sure why I wrote this.. drabble? It was just swirling around in my brain and it needed to be written. Sorry if it's crappy. I think the idea for it came to me after reading a bunch of stuff about Yunho's new drama. It makes me sad, in a way. I mean I'm happy that Yunho is acting and stuff, It's awesome, but the romance thing with Ara, it breaks my YunJae heart. Anyone agree?

Anyway, I'm just rambling. I have been missing from detox for forever, and that's only because I suck. But, I promise, and I will NOT break it, that I will update my next chapter of 'When everything's wrong' by Friday. I have been busy lately with school and writing other things that I haven't put much time in it, but that will change.

So with all that said, please comment, even if you feel like telling me I suck (though I already know I do.)

Aishiteru BBs!~

Current Location: In a jar of peanut butter
Current Mood: crazycrazy
Current Music: Se7en - Passion
Jxox_roxygurl on September 2nd, 2009 12:14 am (UTC)
;__; GAHHH i'm mad now lol, you made me hate yunho in this xD
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on September 2nd, 2009 01:15 am (UTC)
Don't be mad. I'm sorry I made you hate Yunho XD
sacchlovedbsk on September 2nd, 2009 12:53 am (UTC)
spot to!
be back later!!^^
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on September 2nd, 2009 01:45 am (UTC)
:] See you then~
sacchlovedbsk on September 2nd, 2009 02:21 am (UTC)
ouch ouch ouchhh~~~,bb! this is like a mixture of a cherry-drop of fluff in a creamful of angst, and well, i definitely love it! it's sad being jaejoong, but it's also painful being yunho, now that he realizes his feelings but all is too late to do anything about it.

<3 it! (^__^)v! thank you for writing a great angst!!
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on September 2nd, 2009 02:33 am (UTC)
Wow. Your evaluation of my fanfic is awesome~ Thanks for all the lovely comments.

And you're most definitely welcome! :] I'm glad you liked it.
keeaneegankeeaneegan on September 2nd, 2009 02:33 am (UTC)
i don't like this, a heartbreaking...
JaeJoong is deserving better tan YunHo...
and it's too short..
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on September 2nd, 2009 02:35 am (UTC)
I'm sorry. :[
I know, Jaejoongie deserves better.
And I apologize for it being so short.
kattan69kattan69 on September 2nd, 2009 08:08 am (UTC)
Agreeing with you totally. Now it would be better if you write another long drabble showing both of them met up again after a few years but this time Jae found another person to replace Yunho....and the ending shows Yunho regretting the loss. At least we don't have to say poor Jae all alone.
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on September 3rd, 2009 04:27 am (UTC)
Haha, your idea will be added to my long list of things to do. I may get to it, but I can't ensure you it will be soon. I have a lot of catching up to do :[
Thanks for the idea though :D And thanks for commenting!
galgal79galgal79 on September 7th, 2009 03:31 pm (UTC)
Not next life. Pls make it in this life. HaHa
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on September 8th, 2009 01:31 am (UTC)
Haha. yesh, Yunho. Make it this life. Next life is too long away xD