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18 July 2008 @ 03:25 pm
 Title: Better in time
Author: meh
Length: one-shot (really it is)
Genre: fluff, depression
Summary: Yunho and Jaejoong were in love. Then Yunho broke Jaejoong's heart by leaving him, his reason being he thought their love wasn't allowed. He left a broken Jaejoong to tell is story. (JJ's point of veiw to Yunho. I got the inspiration for this fic particially from Leona Lewis's song 'Better in time' as you can tell from the title, a lot from my mind too.)

When you said you were leaving, I felt my heart break in two. When you told me your reason, I felt it bust. When you walked out the door, it evaporated. 

You left me, cold, helpless, in pain. For the longest time I couldn't move. I wanted to die.

I couldn't live. I saw myself becoming more lifeless by the day. I never smiled.

But, I told myself, it'll all get better in time.

It's been a long time since you left. Since then i've learned how to live again. It still hurts, and i know it'll never stop hurting. 

No matter what I do, still today, it reminds me of you. I still imagine you holding me, kissing me, telling me you love me. I still love you. I always will. But, it'll all get better in time.

I have to let go of you. The thoughts, the memories. I have to stop obsessing about you. Your gone.

Even though my broken, pained, almost non-existent heart doesn't believe that your gone, I know you are.

I haven't seen you in so long. I don't know if I could handle seeing you, knowing that your not with me anymore. Knowing that I can't hug you, kiss you, or touch you in the way I used to. Just looking at a picture of you makes me break down. I can't imagine what i'll do if I ever see you again.

I miss you. I wonder if you miss me at all. I wonder if your happy or if you have someone else. I want you to be happy, but at the same time I want you to suffer the same way I am.

At times the pain is almost unbareable, but i just remind myself, it'll all get better in time.

As time passes, some of the pain heals, but it still hurts so much.

I want you back with me. I need you back with me. I need you to hold me. I need you to love me.

No matter how many times I tell myself 'It'll all get better in time' it still hurts. It's been months since you left, and I still can't let go. I need you back for me to live. Without you, i'm nothing. 

You and I are part of entwined souls. That means when their souls are seperated it's impossible for them to live. Your stronger than me. Maybe you can live without me.

Without you, I can't live, I can't breath. So today i'll die. I'll take my own life because I don't want to watch myself die slowly, day by day.

After I die, i'll go to a beautiful place. There i'll wait. I'll wait for you to come back to me. Then we'll stay there forever, just us, where nobody can interfear. Our souls will forever be entwined. Forever.

(A/N: Damn it.. made myself cry. I can barely see the keyboard. I'm so freaking mushy, that's why i shouldn't write these damn sad fics.. they make me all sad and weepy. well I hope you liked the story. It's not that great. But there it is.. Plaese comment.. I wanna know ur reations.. ^^)

Look, happy Jaeho!! ^^

lovelykitten8lovelykitten8 on July 19th, 2008 12:07 am (UTC)
i can't see my keyboard either
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on July 19th, 2008 12:29 am (UTC)
omg.. r u crying too??
gadfly1368gadfly1368 on July 19th, 2008 01:02 am (UTC)
How heartbreaking that Jae had to resort to suicide for he can't bear not having Yunho by his side.
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on July 19th, 2008 01:19 am (UTC)
yeah.. sad jaeho.. makes me cry..
LynnLuvTVXQlynnluvtvxq on July 19th, 2008 04:55 am (UTC)
why??!! *sniff*
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on July 19th, 2008 05:59 am (UTC)
hahaha... I felt the same way.. I had to bribe myself with happy thoughts of jaeho.. if that makes any sense at all..
clocktowers don't tell timetftcproductions on July 19th, 2008 05:09 am (UTC)
Gosh... that just sucks. Why did Yunho leave? Theres no reason to destroy Jaejoong's mind like that. He killed him self? Gosh. Now I'm all mad at Yunho.
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on July 19th, 2008 06:04 am (UTC)
yesh jae killed himself, sad right... i was mad at yunho the whole time i was writing this.. oh and i know this is u su.. I helped you make this name.. quit being all mysterious.. :P
clocktowers don't tell timetftcproductions on July 19th, 2008 08:06 am (UTC)
I'm not being all mysterious... hello Umma, this is your son Su There. Are you happy. You just have to destroy every ounce of fun I have don't you, Umma?!
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on July 20th, 2008 07:26 pm (UTC)
um.. i wuv u.. i'm sorry for destroying ur fun.. here.. have a cookie.. *gives cookie*
vngmvngm on July 19th, 2008 05:05 pm (UTC)
omg so sad. :(
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on July 20th, 2008 07:27 pm (UTC)
yes.. i kno.. *sniffle*
~♥Hope to the End. Always Keep the Faith♥~chloe1910 on July 20th, 2008 07:22 am (UTC)
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on July 20th, 2008 07:28 pm (UTC)
kpopangelkpopangel on July 26th, 2008 04:31 pm (UTC)
yunho did love him and perhaps still loves him, but nevertheless he left jae behind.. and jae really committed suicide.. now even if one day, yunho decides to find jae, he won't be able to.. anymore... T.T argh i hate death fics.. but i just have to read this *sobs*
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on July 27th, 2008 04:02 am (UTC)
haha yes i hate deaths fics too, but i had to write it. sorry if i made u cry. but thanks for reading ^^