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24 June 2014 @ 11:23 am
Hey everyone, all my wonderful readers that have stuck with me through all of my disappearances and reappearances. I know, I'm the biggest jerk ever, but I do have a decent reason this time why I vanished out of the blue.

I got a job.

I know that probably sounds lame and everything I'm about to say could just sound like a bunch of excuses. A lot of things have been happening in my personal life lately and I've been busy dealing with the shit storm that is my life. No, my life is good. Things are just hard, like I'm pretty sure how it is for everybody in the world. At least to some extent.

Writing is a very big passion for me. I love having all the free time I need to write what I want to. That's sort of my process when I'm writing a chapter of a fanfiction. I guess I have a little bit of anxiety towards my writings. Of course, even with a job to get to, I still have down time that I could be using to write. But I tend to get really obsessed with the amount of time I have to push out a piece of the story and then it comes out so shitty and not what I want it to be.

Other times I've let that slide, but I HATE doing that. It's not what I want. If I am going to sit down and write something I want it to at least meet my own expectations. I want to be happy with the finished product instead of stressing later over all of the mistakes and things I didn't have time to add in. That's a terrible feeling.

Maybe I'm making too big of a deal out of this, but writing a worthy fanfiction is very important to me. I want to feel good about what I put out. I am my biggest critic.

One day I do hope to become something more with my writing. For now I'm working as a deli clerk and I'm happy like this. I'm blessed to have found this wonderful job in a good place surrounded by good people. I may not have the time on my hands like I used to, but I am speaking from my heart when I say that I will try my best to continue and finish this fanfiction. And many more to come! I'm not a quitter, so please don't give up on me! Please be patient and remember that I will always be back!

You all have always been wonderful to me. You've made LiveJournal, and all the wonderful people and stories in it, my family and my life. I love you guys :D
tapzztapzz on June 24th, 2014 04:54 pm (UTC)
Ohh hey u r back...i rly missed u...:):)...congrats on ur job...:D...i know that job can be pretty hectic..so don't worry everything will be alright..:):)...as far as the fic is concerned i would like to say don't put so much pressure..we are very patient readers..hihihi..
Soo HWAITING..\m/..^_^^_^
meechan36 on June 25th, 2014 07:29 am (UTC)
Will be waiting for u.