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06 December 2009 @ 08:59 pm
The way we change - part 8  

Title: The way we change
Rating: PG
Pairing: YunJae,
Genre: angst, drama
Length: 8/?
Summary: Yunho is the popular kid, the one everyone looks up to. The one everyone worships and chases after. He lives normally, as normal as any jock could. But when the new kid comes to school, Kim Jaejoong, life as he knew it stops, hits reverse, and turns Yunho's world upside down.
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Jaejoong's eyes darted around my room frantically, almost as if he were looking for a way out. I was now aware that I had screwed up with asking Jaejoong a question he didn't want to answer, but how was I supposed to know that it was off limits to ask him what was wrong?

I sighed. "I'm sorry, Jaejoong. I'm sorry I ever mentioned something being wrong. I didn't mean to upset you." It felt like I was pleading for his forgiveness, I guess I was. But why should I have had to? I wanted to help him, never did I mean to hurt him.

"It's fine," Jaejoong answered, but I knew he was lying. He looked at me again, his eyes weary and cautious.

"Jaejoong," I whispered, low and careful. He seemed so fragile to me all of the sudden. "Can I kiss you?" I wanted to tell him I was there for him and if I couldn't tell him verbally I would tell him with a kiss. Corny? I know.

Jaejoong nodded and I brought my hand to his chin. He closed his eyes, but I wanted to see them. "Show me your eyes, Jaejoong." I whispered. Jaejoong's eyes blinked open and I smiled and pressed my forehead against his. "They're so pretty."

Jaejoong's cheeks reddened. "Th-thank you." He stuttered cutely. I could of fallen for him, the innocent Kim Jaejoong I had started to believe was only a cover for who he really was. I pressed my lips against his, determined to make my point. I wanted him to tell me what he was hiding. I wanted to be the person he could confide in.

Jaejoong relaxed against the kiss. He wrapped his arms around my neck and pulled me closer. I could feel it, the spark when his fingers caressed the back of my neck making the hairs stand up straight. I couldn't deny it, I had fallen for Jaejoong, but it was the Jaejoong he pretended to be. The image he put up so nobody could see who he really was. He was full of secrets and I didn't know if I would feel the same way about him if I knew what he was hiding.

Jaejoong leaned forward, trying to press his body still closer to mine. He was almost on top of me, but it wasn't like I minded. I wanted to hold him so I wrapped my arms tighter around his waist and pulled him onto my lap, his lips meshing with mine more intensely. I needed oxygen, but I ignored the burning sensation in my lungs, their thirst for air. i wasn't finished yet, I needed Jaejoong to know how I felt.

It was Jaejoong though who broke the kiss first, breathing fast and hard. He tucked his face into the crook of my neck and the gesture sent my heart sailing. He felt so close to me.

I reached one of my hands up and brushed it gently through Jaejoong's hair. "Are you alright, Jae?" I asked when I felt his shoulders shaking against me, and then warm tears running down my neck. I didn't have the time to gently push him back, to see his face, the tears I knew were in his eyes. He pulled himself away from me first and stood up from my bed. "This was a mistake," Was all he said before he turned to leave my room.

I didn't respond very quickly, for it happened so suddenly. But finally I pulled myself off of my bed and quickly rushed out of my room to catch him before he left.

"Jaejoong, wait." I called when I saw him close to my front door, but Jaejoong didn't stop. It was the second time he was leaving my house in tears. I didn't understand why he was leaving again. I didn't know what I had done wrong.

"Why do you like me, Yunho?" Jaejoong said to me, turning to me with tears running down his bright pink cheeks. "Why should you like me? I'm nothing special, I can't give you anything." He looked hurt, scared, and something in his eyes told me he resented ever meeting me, ever coming to my house and letting himself kiss me.

"Jae," I whispered, my eyes wide with confusion. "I-I just-"

"You just want me as your fuck toy, huh?" He hissed, his voice cold, but low so only I could hear.

"It's nothing like that, Jaejoong!" I yelled in a hushed whisper, astonished. "I would never think of you that way!"

Jaejoong's face remained unbelieving. "I have to go. I don't want to see you again." He grabbed the doorknob harshly and swung it open without glancing at me again. Jaejoong was gone in a moment. He was gone, and my mind was still searching for answers.

~~~

"Guys, can you please just leave?" I whispered, rubbing my temples with my index fingers. "I have a headache and I just feel like being alone right now."

"But you're all sad," Changmin said, scooting closer to me and resting his hand on my forehead. "You don't feel sick, but you look horrible."

"Thanks, Minnie. Just what I needed." As if I hadn't been feeling bad enough already.

Changmin smirked and leaned away from me. He looked at Yoochun, who was currently staring at me with worry, and smiled. "What do you think we should do with him, Chunnie?"

Yoochun shrugged and tilted his head to the side. "Yun, are you sure you're all right? Did something happen with you and-"

I sighed loudly, interrupting his question. "Nothing happened with Jaejoong and I. I'm fine, I just have a headache and I don't feel like being bothered right now. Please guys, just go."

"But, I didn't even finish-"

"Chun, Min, go!"

They both frowned and pulled themselves up from my bed. I closed my eyes and turned away from them, pulling the covers up over my head. I kind of felt like Jaejoong right then, shutting the world out, not allowing them to know how I was feeling. It was a lonely sort of feeling.

A/N: Part 8! Dramatic, wasn't it? I realize these parts are very, very short. I'm sorry about that, but I'm updating them every day and it just makes it easier that way. I feel bad now :[

I'll update tomorrow. I hope this chapter wasn't complete crap. I'm trying...

Comments are always loved. They encourage me to write more :] Aishiteru, bb's!


 
 
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cHiidb_sarang on December 8th, 2009 09:31 am (UTC)
mine??



cHiidb_sarang on December 8th, 2009 09:33 am (UTC)
hell yeah~~!! *jumps in joy*

I just found it and pretty much hooked up =D
brb with a proper comment after my classes end ^^
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on December 8th, 2009 11:05 pm (UTC)
Aww, I'm thrilled you like it so much :D *jumps with you*
♥♥
Auroranericia on December 8th, 2009 08:34 pm (UTC)
You were super fast to update this time! :D
ahh what happened to Jaejoongie?? Why this poor baby can't trust anybody?? He really doesn't love himself either...
I wanna read more, please!
I want to add you as friend if you don't mind ;)
jaejaelover33jaejaelover33 on December 8th, 2009 11:05 pm (UTC)
:D Yay~
I'll reveal some of JJ's secrets soon :]
I'll update soon~~
I don't mind at all, bb! ♥♥
-» καтħʁи: :Dvanillaicex3 on December 10th, 2009 03:05 am (UTC)
O_____________________________O", What happened NUUUUUUUU dsklfnldsnkflwnelfdskf -goes crazy-
jaejoongxyuno07jaejoongxyuno07 on January 4th, 2010 03:27 am (UTC)
I'm so caught up in this!
haha

I've been reading it all!
and I keep forgetting to comment!
D:
mianhae!
kittyyunjae501: pic#110069259kittyyunjae501 on April 26th, 2011 02:14 am (UTC)
humm~what happen with jaejoong T.T~